you.

i have had on and off thoughts about you.
i dreamt of you the other night.
i wondered who your nick meant but i told myself i should not be thinking.
i feel sad knowing that you are going to enter soon but again, i told myself i should not think.
it's been awhile since i seen or talked to you.
i just hope you are happy and fine.

as for me,

in Him, i will trust! (: 
and i know He will provide.


just want to pray for the Lord to watch over you as you go on your holiday (though i have no idea where you're going) but i pray for your safety and those who going with you! 
The Lord will keep you safe! ((:

they said that i am not who i used to be.
i asked them why? 
they replied, " you are not the cheerful kelly we used to know. "
i said, " i still smiles and all."
and they said, "but it's not from your heart."

the loss of that relationship really made a great impact on me.
so much so that i am really afraid to step in another.
i'm afraid of the hurt it brings when it ends.
i'm afraid of letting myself fall again.
but above all this, i want to pick myself up again.
 

losing yourself can be scary sometimes,
when finding yourself back can be a challenge.
but overcoming a challenge makes a person a stronger,
and that's where i want to head to.

it's a week since school started. 
what can i say? but it's all about adapting again.
the one week went by slowly as if it's a month! 

university life i would say, is different from life in poly.
though it works on a system similiar, the people and environment is quite different.
university life is rather stressful, workload heavy (i have like 3 projects on hand already!) and everyone is disciplined and efficient.
i made awesome new friends already and my group mates are great! ((:

side track, my left eye was feeling bruised the past 5 days.
not that i got punched or anything but i dont know why either.
the feeling is like having a blue-black on the inside of my lower eyelid.
thought that it will get better but it felt really bad yesterday that each time i blink, it hurts.
mum suggested seeing the doc before it gets worse and thank God i did!
the doc says that it is an eye infection lah. wonder how i even got it.
but at least i have something to apply on it now.
hope it recovers soon coz it is affecting me quite abit.

oh well.
it's the weekends now.
and i finally know how it feels when it's "TGIF!". HAHA.


i'm off to    fly kite fly kite all the rest can go fly kite! ((:

after months of holidays, it is time for me to hit the books again.
school at SIM-UB is gonna start tomorrow and i'm all excited over it! (: